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Dearest KT & SM: I do so identify with your experience; however, I do also believe that because we are all different [is that true?] that we all process this information differently [is THAT true? ...this ends up being a stream of consciousness email]. I do know that I have come to know that I know nothing for sure. Even as I sit and type out this reply, I don't know...but now in the very moment ... I do know that the 'space' we all share ... beyond the cells of our bodies, the molecules in the air and the atoms of a rock ... that 'space' is the commonality of this 'being' ... a dear friend called it 'love' after I described what it is that 'holds' us together. That commonality of this 'love space' is what we share and what binds us together. So, your experience is suddenly mine ... and mine yours! I can hear your words describing what happen to you and I can transform them into my experience. And, though this experience is 'different' it is still the same. With much love for our shared 'space', cm

I love this program, and listen to it constantly since I got the cd's. It really helps me to notice when I'm totally out of my business and suffering.

I have a huge amount of work to do on body identification. I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks--especially around body issues. Yesterday, I went to the dentist for a cleaning--I was petrified with thoughts about--"they are going to find something wrong with my teeth or gums, etc. I've had a lot of work done--including implants, in my mouth. But, really this is not the point I want to make. I'm just petrified about "anything" that has to do with body/illness stuff. So, I never go to the doctor, and I'm healthy right now, so I don't have to. But, I'm constantly monitoring everything...it gets very tiring to live this way. It helped me a lot to have listened to Katie before I went to the dentist. I still had to take a xanex--which I fight with myself to do so. I think I should be stronger than that.

Well, the hygienist checked my mouth and found some white spots which she photographed, and showed on the screen. She said nothing to be concerned about right now, but "we'll have to be looking at them as I come back." At the moment, I felt ok, and even asked if they looked that bright inside the mouth. I was feeling a bit more detached at the moment. The cleaning was over later and I left the office feeling fine. Now, next day, I'm stuggling with the thought of white spots in my mouth....

The work helps me with this moment because the story will continue until I go back in July for another cleaning and another "spot spotting". I would just love to be "free" of this obsession with body identification--which brings on sooo much anxiety and, at times, panic attacks. It's been the same old story since my mother died 17 years ago!

Listening and reading Katie has helped a lot, and I'm so grateful for that. Yet, this body-identification is so strong--it's like I'll spin out of control any moment now. I was going to go to the school on April 13, but I can't because my partner in business is going in for a hip replacement--and I'd have to be in constant touch with the office. So, I ruled that one out due to the fact I know I can't do that while at the school. Now, I want to attend the October one? I know Katie comes back from Europe and will probably have one in Los Angeles at that time.

Sometimes it's so freeing to just let eveything go and do the thing infront of me--whatever that may be. At those moments, I'm really free of the mind torture, and I see every human being who is doing life the way they do it--along with all the other things...and it's all just beautiful! We all have something we need to work on in order to realize "what or who" we are--and even that changes...so why is the "story" such a hard habit to kick? Or even understand?

I remember another teacher--Ram Dass, who said something like: "Whenever my neuroses surface I invite them to come and have tea with me." I'd be having gallons of tea or scotch--because they come in and visit a lot.

Anyway, thanks to Katie and Stephen (I'm a lover of the Tao) for undertaking the work of making the wisdom of the ages accessible to all!

In gratefullness to your beautiful spirits,
a humble pathwalker.