Hi Katie,
It's 11:30 pm. I was just on the Community site, looking briefly at the assignments for the Candidate Teleclasses coming up. Gratitude. Then I got off the site and listened to 20 min or so of you in a recording on facilitation "Who is Teacher" where you were doing the Work with a woman. What I heard is as facilitators we are asking the 4 questions, so we can hear them. They are for us to hear, even when we apparently ask the "client" the question. I love (slowly) waking up to that I have nothing to give to somebody. Gratitude. I thought about my life, and waking up to my wife Beth, who is away visiting her daughter in Texas. I am (slowly) seeing how I have never met her, my wife. Gratitude.
I am now listening to Jai Uttal while I type this note to you, as tears of gratitude are flowing...who knows why...who cares!! You have won my heart. It's over!! Wow..even a little waking up is so delightful. Thank you again. I love bursting. I'd say, God Bless You...but I know you say "He already does", so I'll take it as my own blessing. Gratitude.
Love,
Grant
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Hi Everyone,
I have been looking all over the blog site and the community site tonight wanting to find a place to share my story. Really, I can say the non-story (due to the loving power of The Work) of my son's being expelled today from the school he has attended since pre school. I see, having just reread this, if it is a non-story why is it so long...This impulse in me to share lives a full life.
He was due to graduate in 3 months -one year early. And I find that it is from gratitude that I want to share this story and here I am linked to Grant's sharing. I love finding myself in the right place.
Three weeks ago I did a work sheet judging my son on his lack of gratitude for his gifts and the war he was creating at school with authority and his private use of pot. I ended the page looking forward to him losing his place of honor and being punished.
Last week I got a call from the school saying that he was stoned.
I got very excited for him. I could only see this as an opportunity for him. There was only love for this dear boy.
I was surprised to find out what an opportunity it was for me too. There was opportunity for me to see my own arrogance, how I gave my thinking so much authority and how I judge others for the extra push they/I give when I want to show someone how wrong they are for thinking they are right. And it was an opportunity to receive his love for me and see how responsive he can be. The first thing he said to me was "I am sorry mom", and the second was "I needed a challenge."
I found my voice from this place of loving myself. Giving myself the time to articulate what I wanted to say when he argued and justified. We always came back to rest, to this love between us.
I noticed my thoughts of shame. "they will think we are a bad family" And the difference since living with the Work was the way the thought left. I felt the body react and I knew it wasn't true from some place else...I will call it the heart, "my" wisdom.
I noticed body reactions with a still heart.
Indigestion, pain in my shoulder.
And the process continues for us. He has been expelled with the most generous support for him completing the year, without stepping on school grounds.
What I see is that he got just what he wanted.
A very clear structure to follow on his own. He has a chance to appreciate these authorities and learn from them now that he is not a "student". And he doesn't have to go to school. The universe is friendly.
I have seen and I know that he has noticed how I lived with this. with no fear. no punishment. with honesty and a voice. He knows I do the Work. He just doesn't know what that is yet, for himself. Can I be sure he has not experienced the work for himself. no.
The Work has revealed to me how simple Life is to respond to. I am responding to me, directly. This life lives me thanks to the Work. I am full of gratitude. Thank you Katie.
with such love for this state of being love,
B
Posted by B | February 27, 2008 6:49 PM
Posted on February 27, 2008 18:49