As Friday now begins, this will be my fifth day living here in the county of Humboldt. I feel so many lessons waiting for me here, so many stones unturned, so many teachers fast approaching. I love to notice how full of myself, how self-righteous, and how quick to judgment I am. It is so exciting to see how much work I still have to do. It fills me up with bursts of enthusiasm, as I reflect on anything in the day that felt like velcro in my body, any stressful thoughts that did not pass with ease, but instead stuck inside me and became hard. I had such a beautiful facilitation by my new friend D today. My stressful thought was “I don’t fit in”. I quickly came to realize it was my thinking that did not fit in here. It was my thinking that was creating all of the separation I was seeing. There is no separation until I believe it. Believing the thought I don’t fit in makes me focus on where you and I are different. It only makes me want to see more ways that I can justify this belief that I indeed, do not fit in. That you are not like me, and that I am better. It’s become such a game, between me, myself, and I. When I hear the thought swell up inside me “I’m better than you, or, I know more, or I’m on such a higher level” I meet it with giggles of joy. I now actually enjoy kicking myself off my own pedestal, it’s become so impersonal. Somewhere along the path of committing to self-realization, it became self-enjoyment, and now there is no part of my mind I do not enjoy.
I am so appreciative for this continued commitment of inquiry with ongoing partners. I was quite resistant at first because I believed I didn’t need it. I have had to sit with myself literally for an hour or more at a time to try and find one thought that was causing me stress before calling my partner. Sometimes I can’t locate one at all. And I find that those are the days that inquiry is just simply fun and when the call ends I feel happy to have connected with someone from the school. And then there are days, like today, when I needed that call. I was feeling alone, isolated, and out of place here in my new place of residence. I got to talk it out with someone who uses the same language, someone who knew the work, someone who could just hold the space for me, ask the simple questions, and listen. It is priceless.
I’ve come to realize that I don’t need The Work every day. I go days on end without a single stressful thought. And then something pops up and I discover a new stone, or an ancient stone, that hasn’t full turned over and cleaned itself off yet. Those are the days that I go straight to inquiry and fall in love again, and again, and again. I can no longer locate a time I am not falling in love, whether it is with living without stressful thoughts, or living with a stressful thought and then asking it four simple questions and turning it around.
As I came back from the School in April I started to have fearful thoughts about my body, not at all like me before, so I began to see “dangerous moles” and had them checked, then I went to see another the Doctor who said he felt my heart energy low and I should go to see a cardiologist, in the meantime I watched my mind and I new something deeper was moving on without having any clue what it was about.
Then one morning I found myself lecturing my husband about how hard his silence was for me, as I thought I had finished and went to get ready start my day and got into the shower a thought came to me: “Oh, my husbands silence is killing me!” – then a quick turnaround hit me, “my silence is killing me?” with a big question mark attached to it because I talk a lot, then like if I had been hit by thunderbolt I saw that I have never ever been able to express to anyone my fears, needs or desires or to ask for anything at all.
How true it was that my silence was killing me! and I saw how I had used my body as a shield to protect that deep silence, going to the extreme of willing to sacrifice it before opening up, so I have had threatening health issues in the past. All of this happened at the speed of light without even doing the Judge-Your-Neighbor Worksheets.
Needless to say that I spent the rest of the day overtaken by the clarity of my mind and the true power of The Work. All my secretly hidden capacity to love is out to the world now.
God bless you Katie you are truly a gift to the World! All my love to you,
The Work doesn’t help anyone; it’s your answers that help you.
As a graduate of the April School for the Work in LA, I am bursting with enthusiasm to share The Work. I had the opportunity last weekend to give a 40 minute introduction to 120 women gathered for the national convention (16th anniversary) of the Women’s Federation for World Peace, of which I’m a district leader.
The title of the convention, held in NJ, was “Securing Peace Through a Culture of Heart”. I’m grateful to that organization for building my presentation into the program. Even in those few minutes, many of the women told me they could see how “awesome” the Work can be.
My presentation on The Work went like this:
– A few words on how The Work is a revolutionary process.
– We listened to a beautiful love song.
– All filled out Judge Your Neighbor Worksheets, which each woman read to a partner.
– The “I Know Mind”, the “Heart Mind”, and how the questions are an invitation for the heart to answer (I love that part!)
– How to isolate a thought.
– As a group, the audience answered the 4 questions around the one-liner “people should listen to me”.
– Demonstration of facilitation with an audience member asking me the 4 questions.
– Partners facilitated each other, using the little yellow cards.
– Audience commented how they found the inquiry experience to be “calming, empowering, etc.”
– Gave information about the website, books, other resources.
I’m so happy to have been able to share this gift, and my hope is that many of the women will learn to enjoy the amazing benefits of The Work. I’m attaching a few pictures. Thank you, Katie!
What a wonderful experience you all gave me! I truly enjoyed each of you and I want to thank you for sharing with me all of your struggling joy of troubles along with mine. I honestly appreciated the encounters with my CRAZY family and will embrace you and this new journey of understanding that “Its All Good”! Please continue to pour your loving hearts in my direction as I realize how supportive we are to each other with just a simple “hello”.
Katie has touched my heart in a way that I have never felt before nor truly believed could exist among people who are strangers to each other. Simply put, loving what is, expresses the beauty of living! Thank you family and to the staff family and especially to Katie!!!!
I love you all dearly.